Seriously Slacking Here!!!

I really need to get back into the habit of writing here. I was doing so good!

Nothing new or exciting has happened lately. Tuesday was the presidential election and of course, my party of choice lost, and we now have voted in the first black President. Talk about making history. There are a lot of racist jokes going around about all of this, but seriously, I think it is neat that a black man was able to even run for president, let alone WIN the election. Considering that a black man used to couldn't even eat in the same restaurant as a white man or drink from the sae fountain. I just hope that he is a good president and does the American people right. Because he has made a lot of promises to the people and he needs to make as many of them come true as he can. A lot of people around here are concerned about the oil field shutting down, but I just have to have faith in God that things will be alright.

I am sitting here in an empty house right now...Gary is at the rig and both my monkeys are gone. My back went out this morning, and so my mom came and took Lanie for me. My grandparents are gonna pick Kaci up from school for me. I can't wait til all this everyday chronic pain is gone...and I know I still have a long road ahead of me before that happens.

So I am making another trip to Dallas in a couple weeks for that discogram, and I am nervous about that, which I know seems silly...I mean, here I am about to have my back sliced open and more than half of my spine fused, and I am worried about a discogram?! Dr. Shelokov told me that I won't remember the discogram after its done so that was reassuring. So we shall see.

Ohhh! The other night I was at my grandmas house and I was in a very sad state because Gary and I were fighting and as I was about to leave, my Bigdad handed me a small box. He said they were gonna wait until right before my surgery to give it to me, but decided now would be a good time. In it was a white gold necklace with a pendant of a butterfly. Now I am not into butterflies or anything, but still appreciated the thought! But then I saw there was something inscribed on the back. It said, "Just when the caterpillar thought that the world was over, she became a butterfly". Well, THAT turned on the tears, big time. Bigdad hugged me and said you're gonna come out of this surgery as a beautiful butterfly, your life is not over. I am telling you, that was the most heartfelt and thoughtful gift I have ever received and the messages speaks volumes.

Anyways, I was just writing to pass time....my drugs are kicking in and I am gonna lay down.