Something cool I found out!

Two things I found out, but one of them I can't speak of until she decides to tell the rest of the world. Meg. Hahahaha...I'll write about her little revelation later on :]

But the other is that my mother took a new job at this place called Maximus, apparently they handle Medicaid and other state programs...anyways, she said there was a guy at work with her that had a scar all the way up into the back of his head, down his neck, and pretty sure down into his back too. Well, curiosity got the best of her, and she asked him about it. (So nosey! lol)

He went on to tell her that he had what most people call a "humpback/hunchback"...which is technically called Kyphosis...and she told him about how I had scoliosis surgery, that I had it really bad, and that they totally fixed it...then started talking about how my surgeon had passed away back in August :[ And he said something like, "Dr. Shelokov??" (I wasn't there for this convo lol) and she said "Yes!"...he said that was HIS surgeon also!! He had the operation back in 1999-2001(?) Isn't that awesome? Dr. S's patients are just scattered all over the place. But he is the 4th in this area that I have heard about...I am sure there are more, but I haven't learned about them! Anyways, I just think its totally cool, and she told him about my blog, but since my Mom is kinda technically challenged (love you mom!!) she told him my blog was lifeiscrooked.com. Hahaha. Well, she came pretty close, so maybe he will find it if he looks for it. Adam, if you are reading this, then HELLO! And I would love to meet you!!

I am still doing totally awesome as far as pain...it just seems to get a little less every single day. As long as I don't act like SuperWoman and try and get 1,845,924 things done in one day. The annoying pain in my side is easing up too! Its so encouraging to me! The only issue I really deal with now is that pain on top of my fusion, feels like tension, not sure what it is, but its like a bad burning and tight sensation and it just SUCKS! And like I said before, my back where the actual fusion took place is not hurting at all, just tender from the surgery...and I was wondering the other night..."What if it doesn't hurt because uhhhhh its still NUMB??"...if my back 'wakes up' and stuff, and hurts, then what? But I am thinking it would have started hurting before now. And a lot of it before was pain AND the feeling like I was totally scrunched up. I don't know...I am just rambling now. [What the blogs for, right?? :)] So anyways, now I am all excited about the pain being gone, the side pain being gone, but now have this upper shoulder region pain. I have an appointment with my pain doctor in October, so I shall ask him about that.

I was already gonna tell him that I really only need pain meds on the days that I work because of all the bending over and stuff, the end of the 6 hours, I am hurting pretty bad. I am off the muscle relaxers and the Ambien...so maybe he can work out yet another regimen with me as far as medicating me! :]

Oh and I am also happy that I am almost done with my Bone Growth Stimulator...December 15th will be my very last day to wear that thing! One month prior to my one year anniversary!

Also, the weather changing and stuff, is taking me to this time last year. As I was getting closer to the surgery, and doing all the pre-op procedures to get ready for this, I don't know...it just kinda makes me sad and I don't know why. The people who know my whole story might understand what I am talking about...I was in a very bad marriage, on top of dealing with getting ready for this surgery, I went through HELL to get to January 15, 2009 and its like I am reliving it all in my mind. I have been having nightmares of having to have the surgery again, or weird stuff like that. My mom got my hospital pictures developed and when I looked at them, although I am happy I had the surgery, looking at the pictures makes me feel...I don't know the right word for it...melancholy?

I am coming close to the anniversary of when I had my first pre-op procedure done (in November)...a discogram, which was not fun, it was scary and I hated every minute of it. Just things like that. Am I weird for feeling like this?

Well...I gots to go...will write again soon!